The Weather Station - Neon Signs Lyrics

I've gotten used to feeling like I'm crazy - or just lazy. Why can't I get off this floor? Think straight anymore? Out on the street, I went walking in a punishing heat -nobody meets my eyes except witty signs and luxury designs. Every neon sign every flashing light tries to fool you. Get you on their side, everybody swears they need you - and only you - to make the buy. You feel flattered to be wanted and you don't know why - it reminds me of that look, that look in your eyes. Never enough in a world without trust, having to rely upon the lightning flash of lust - like it's almost the same as love. Every neon sign every flashing light tried to fool me. There I was - just stretching out my mind to take in every wounded story. Nothing needs you so badly as a lie, so lonely, drifting, unmoored from real life. Begging, begging somebody to keep it alive. Living rough in a world without trust, having to rely upon the honesty of lust. You had to make yourself wanted, to get what you wanted. Now you got me - this broken prize, clinging to you but blank in the eyes, want is a feeling you can't take alive. Till I fell out of desire like a slipped knot I fell out of desire and nothing caught I fell out of the fire wasn't even hot I could feel nothing nothing nothing nothing naught. My want was honest - you tried to direct it. But it was connected - to something I can't explain, immersed in all my pain, like a root in a ceiling drain breaking apart everything. I never knew it - I tried so hard to cut through it. Never enough in a world without trust, determined broken open and refusing to adjust - I swear to god I saw real love once. But nothing needs you so badly as a lie, so lonely, drifting, unmoored from real life - if nobody believes it all it can do is die."