Weighted - One Last Time Lyrics

I realized the other day I haven't seen my grandma in years
And she lives right down the block but nobody in my family even cares

So that makes me start to wonder what will happen in my life and if the people that I love will remember me when I'm dying but I'm getting existential and exaggerating my deepest fears

But if you know me
You'd probably say that doesn't sound like me
But if you knew me
I fear you'd say it's not surprising

I realized the other day how quickly that a loved on could die
My aunt wrote me a birthday card and I kept on meaning to reply

So when dad called me last night and told me that she passed away I felt a burden on my chest of things that I had meant to say
Like how I never even got to tell her my one last goodbye

But if you know me
You'd probably say that doesn't sound like me
But if you knew me
I fear you'd say it's not surprising

I wish I could've heard her voice
One last time
I wish I would have took the chance
To tell her that I'm doing just fine
We may have never been that close
But her impact on me in short time shows
That you can live for goodness if you try
I swear to her I'll live a wonderful life

I realized the other day I haven't been myself this year