Wes Castle - Am I Meant to Be Alone? Lyrics

I got too many questions
Are you vouchin' for me
With all the bullshit you sendin'
Maybe it's a sign, just wanna teach me a lesson
Are you watching me sinnin' or just ignore my progression
Cause I don't know what is right
Are you really with me is there even a reason to fight
Feelin' empty, feelin' cold, too the point I don't even mind
I got used to the pain, it's buried I just need some time, I hear my name
I swear I ain't seein' shit the same
It's like i'm there but i'm not there dog am I meant to be insane?
And Maybe it's the smoke that I just toked and I this snow that's in my brain
And I can't dose or stop I know I can explain, uh
Yeah, I know I can explain wo wo
Yeah, I know I can explain wo wo
Am I meant to be alo, oh, one
Am I meant to be alone yeah
God pick up the pho, oh, one
I just really need to know yeah
Am I meant to be alo, oh, one
Am I meant to be alone yeah
Am I meant to be alone yeah
I just really need to know yeah
I just got back home I can't sleep so what's new
Saw the most beautiful girl man like damn, I was due
We really clickin', I dig her, she diggin' me too,
We got back to her place to watch a movie than boom
She was grindin' on me
Shit was sexy couldn't believe it
Now i'm in shock, stress is kickin' in my lungs ain't breathin'
She asked me to stay I said nah I should be leavin'
Cause I was scared that the man you wanted I couldn't be him
My entire drive home was in my head like what the f*ck
Maybe I should turn around and be with you but time is up
Now my brain is goin' around thinkin' a million things
Is this the girl I want to be with and is she in it with me
Swore would never happen have a women make me feel weak
Not again not after what all of my exes did with me
But is that the reason
Past-habits come to season
While I just worked my ass off on having them defeated
What should I do, gots to be why I love the solititude
But one thing I wouldn't mind girl is spendin' some time with you
One thing I wouldn't mind is spendin' some time with you
Guess im meant to be alone until god decides i'm due, uh
Am I meant to be alo, oh, one
Am I meant to be alone yeah
God pick up the pho, oh, one
I just really need to know yeah
Am I meant to be alo, oh, one
Am I meant to be alone yeah
Am I meant to be alone yeah
I just really need to know yeah
It's been a while since I felt this I thought I had lost the feelin'
A feelin' that was buried and I ain't never thought of seein'
Of wantin' to give my all but you see I am still revealin'
Some things about myself that I ain't never thought could deepen
My soul, my heart, my mind and thoughts I'll never get to beat 'em
Battlin' my anxieties until start to believe 'em
I didn't think that this was possible guess it's that time of season
But I hope this time around you give my love another meanin, uh