White Noyes - Leviticus Lyrics

You never think
Anything bad will happen in your own life
You think, that will happen to them
Not me
It won't happen to me
And then one day
One day you wake up and you're like
Shit
I'm not a role model or someone to look up to
Ever since I got behind the mic yelling f*ck you
Things were flying at my face, I couldn't even duck, dude
I can't tell what's fake, what's hot, what's really not, and what's true
I let a bunch of people down, that's including myself
Staring at a bunch of liquor sitting on the high shelf
Still it's hard for me to tell you all just what I felt
I was closed off to those looking for me and my help
It was like my evil twin suddenly become the real me
I'm wiping tears away from me but I could barely still see
Holding my face up in my hands feeling tremendously guilty
I'm hoping that God'll help me and he'll make a move to heal me cuz
I hold myself to standards that you could never live by
Each day is like a race and all we wanna do is get by
There's only so much that I can stand, I can no longer sit by
I apologize for what I've done, now I'll slip by
I said the Novena to St. Jude
The Novena to St. Joseph
I said my rosary every night
And even someone of Faith
You're still like
Are these prayers working?
God, do You even hear me?
God said I gave you a life and this is what you did with it?
You couldn't just do it to yourself, you had to bring my kids in it?!
Now the pain won't go away, and you just got to live with it
I'm not finished with you yet, you'll just need to wait a minute
Everything good I gave you, you just threw it all away
It was like you called to say, you just took your ball to play
Tried to do it on your own, I watched you fall straight on your face
See what's going through your mind, thinking that they're all the same
Gave you all these opportunities, don't be blaming me
I thought I'd made you fight for this, what you did I can't believe
Watched you leave like jangling keys and it tore you apart like a lame disease
And I felt your heart turn cold and seize, now you need some antifreeze
You never did stop to consider if, this type of love, should exist
And if I change you as a man, you better raise some better kids
Not everything is black and white, not everything, hit or miss
It's time that you move on from this, to Ellie and Dez, please give a kiss
You eventually get to a point where
You stop thinking about the
What ifs and the what could have been
You wake up and you realize
Okay, this is my life
And it's time to move forward
If it's my book of healing, then of course you know I read it
If it's in my book of prayers, then of course you know I said it
I'm still not copacetic, and I'm no longer energetic
So when I say that I'm just fine
I know you just don't get it
9 to 5, 5 to 9, I work my f*cking ass off
With so many wishes on this 8 Ball
I rubbed the black off
And I no longer act soft
I'm swift with all that fast alk
My neck just snapped and that's a fact that's why I'm talking back ya'll
You can keep that fake shit on, it's time I take my mask off
That's why I'm sitting in the back of the class, relaxing, with my jacket off with
With Gia, Benzo, Packet, huh
Generic, Leeky, Jack, that's raw
Even if these songs get zero streams, my ego's blasting off
And I'm the one that took this cross and now it's got my back hurt
I'll accept my life for what it's worth, and it's like patch work
I'm a father, i'm a failure, but notice how I put "dad" first
This is my part 3, and it might just be my last verse
I'm no hero
I'm no hero
I'm no hero
I'm no hero
I'm no hero
I'm no hero
I'm no hero
I'm no hero