I feel the voices in my head
All their concerns and what they suggest
I'm seeing everything in red
Highlight the next subject infrared
I'm in for more than a dent
I want to show you everything, The whole mess
From playing Legos as a kid
To making rhymes it's legit
People say I'm witty but I have a hot temper
'Cause I've been through some shit
My only response is I ain't problematic
Bad luck keeps me up, Chasing like IT
I saved every Pennywise to see if one day I'd be rich
I used to have shirt sizes too small and too big
None would fit
I understand why people punked on me so hard back then
I looked like I didn't know how to put together an outfit
I'm autistic but at least authentic
I'll get no credit, I try, No matter, Don't sweat it
Then one day I'm a rapper, Now it sounds pathetic
I get it, You bet against it
Six years later you hear me
Now you switch, You're completely invested
Ha, Ha
Verse 2
I've never been good at taking compliments in
Probably cause I've never got them
Or it's hard to believe I'm a hidden gem
Underestimated, The best in the draft
To keep it abbreviated
I'm not claiming to be the greatest
I'd love to get someone to accommodate with
I don't play the date game
I wouldn't know how to handle the heartbreak
Some days I think about it till it gets late
I want to take the risk but this one can lead to pain
Pain can lead to many rainy days
As I sit alone though, I watch everyone pass or drift away
So maybe this is a risk I will have to take
I know if it goes south I'll be the only one to blame
I need change more than ever, It sounds strange
Coming from a person like me, Well I'm constantly drained
I need to relocate, I'm tired of feeling exhausted with aches
It all plays a part of my anger ranged from rage to angst
Since a young age it felt like I'm siding for base
Will I make it?
The umpire's unsure to call it safe
Let me take you through what I see on a day to day
I see the light dim, People don't see it, It's starting to faint
They refuse to believe anything so they cover it up like paint
This is how this archangel gained his wings
He prayed, Then he hunted his prey
Azrael is his name
Austin has vanquished, You feel it in vain
Like it's judgment day
The angel of death with a sixth sense
In a sense, Everything's considered past tense
I take your innocence
What you mean by we're friends?
Unless it comes with benefits, You can bend a dick
Cancel me in a coffin, Nail me to a crucifix
I promise no screws can fix
I keep coughing, Scoffing at my own head
It's twisted like a contortionist
Licorice the way it bends and twists
It's more than malevolent
Crucible like Pandora's box
I'm in the mix between elusiveness
I'm not Lucifer, I just say how it is
Life is always limitless
Except like a harbinger
All I get is bad luck or death
I guess that's what it costs to see the future ahead
I'm being pushed to the edge
With each second I'm pressed
It always feels like I'm underwater
Trying to catch a breath
How much time is left?
I'm barely hold on asking
Are we there yet?
If my grip slips
And you turn your back on me
I will never forget
I will never forget
I'm like the angel of death
They say the angel of death
Is like Karma?
Well that's my best friend
What you give is what you get
Yeah you heard what I said
I'm the angel of death
Devils and angels, On my shoulders both jest
I feel the beat pounding Off the heart of my chest
I'm obsessed And infatuated
With what's next
I'm futuristic but simplistic
Who's from the midwest?
I feel like what I do is only one percent
A contradiction, To your predicament
Hypocrites will do anything, But listen
Like Tupac said About all you crooked politicians
I can spot the difference
From real and fake From a distance
I never grew up With a silver spoon
But I did wash dishes
I'll knock the spoon out of your mouth and ask if you're finished?
I know nothing about white privilege
Aside from those who lived it
I'm feeling golden
Tell Charlie To give me the ticket
I'll rip it, and spit it back at him, And never get it
The only thing I've ever been given
Is the life I've been living