Difficult Video (MV)

Life can be so difficult I'm at my highest when I'm low
I'm dead inside but you already know Based off my sad songs and all my poems
I wish I wasn't complex and compromisable The subject at matter isn't understandable
I put my message out in hope it's relatable I don't want to struggle and lie
I wanna be happy, I wanna be loved I want everything that money can't buy
I don't want pity, I don't wanna feel shitty for once
I just wanna feel alive I'm grateful for who I have
But I can't bank on the promise, Asking if I'm fine?
No I'm not, But I won't let those true feelings ever show their side
I Instead reply, Yeah, Don't worry, And thanks for the check up then cry
I want out of my misery But even that won't give me company
I contemplate suicide, I don't have the balls to do it man
What kind of failure am I?
Maybe it's because I haven't found my balls or tried hard enough this whole time
It's like, Life is one big testament Will I learn from my lessons?
Or will I do it again and become less then?
I'm tired of always second guessing
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Life can be so difficult It's difficult
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Man life can be so difficult It's difficult It's difficult
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Man life can be so difficult
It's so difficult Yeah life can be so difficult
It's so difficult life can be so difficult
It's difficult
Yeah money's important, But like fame it could turn you to a monster
Tell me what's harder, Wanting it all or having no one to spend time with?
Your feelings begin to harbor It would be nice to think someday I can have
A son and daughter I don't even get along with my own father
As time goes on, We only grow farther
I hate how I am as a person, I feel like a martyr
I need help, I'm too weak to get it myself
I struggle with what's in my head, Bad mental health
The hardest thing to learn is you love yourself before someone else
I'm not depressed because my money is less
Truth is I'm low-key, But my heart is in debt
I just can't be happy Living off of possessions, I'm not materialistic, Only possessive
Cause I grew up not having shit, I only know about abandonment
I'm sorry if I've ever sounded selfish or desperate
I have problems well, I'm trying to fix it
If I mind my own will, Someone listen?
Deep down I want the recognition
This is way more than depressing I only seem to get the negative attention
I feel like even God's against me with my resentment
I'm having difficulties with this assessment Mixed between cursed and blessings
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Life can be so difficult It's difficult
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Man life can be so difficult It's difficult It's difficult
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Man life can be so difficult
It's so difficult Yeah life can be so difficult
It's so difficult life can be so difficult
It's difficult
Feeling like a letdown, Is more than difficult Always acting out on impulse
Change honestly sounds pretty wishful It feels like I traded a quarter for a nickel
I feel the disappointment as my body's being pulled Which direction do you want me to go?
As I get catapulted, It's hard to be speechless coming from a poet
Life sometimes got me soft-spoken I struggle with emitting my emotions
Unless if it's in these notes, I'm hopeless I'm not what anyone wants knowing
I keep writing out my main focus What's writer's block? I seem closed off
But I'm always open divulge I'm tenfold more than grown
Since the last time I touched a microphone Indulge yourself but don't let it show
It's like trying to steal a dog's bone Hogging it get your own
Rap is mine culture, Vultures better let it go Industry plants, It must be difficult
When it's cold, Ghost writers got nothing to me I'm bold, I out write myself every time put that in quotes
It feels like someone just slit my throat Will I ever get signed by an interscope?
Will I make it independent? As an artist? I don't know
Do I need a cosign or keep grindin' for the fun of it? I suppose
When you question yourself more than life itself Everything becomes even more than difficult
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Life can be so difficult It's difficult
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Man life can be so difficult It's difficult It's difficult
Life can be so difficult It's so difficult
Man life can be so difficult
It's so difficult Yeah life can be so difficult
It's so difficult life can be so difficult
It's difficult