Battle Within Video (MV)

I'm so tired of feeling like a weight
Hurting those I love, sealing my fate
In my mind, a battlefield unknown
Self-doubt and anguish, never alone
Like Jon Snow, fighting in the fray
Against demons that won't fade away
Losing ground in this cruel game I play
On the brink, staring into the endless gray
It calls out to me, whispers in my ear
Offering escape from this endless fear
But I know passing on this pain isn't right
Can't burden others with my endless fight
Trained to sacrifice myself to ease their storm
Yet finding no shelter from my soul's reform
Always a step behind, never ahead
Thinking maybe I'd be better off dead
Longing for the days when life was okay
Trying not to burden those I love this way
Silently battling, into the shadows I fade
Searching for solace, in darkness I wade
They say fight with everything you've got, don't fold
But strength fades when hope feels cold
The terrifying truth of my own distress
Knowing my end could cause them more duress
So I hold on, despite the pain and fright
For them, I persist, through each endless night
I'll stay and fight another day, for you
Because for you, there's nothing I won't do
In the silence of this ongoing fight
I'll keep pushing, keep shining my light
Always a step behind, never ahead
Thinking maybe I'd be better off dead
Longing for the days when life was okay
Trying not to burden those I love this way
Silently battling, into the shadows I fade
Searching for solace, in darkness I wade