Up in Smoke Video (MV)

Stuck in the deep end
No exits, I'm speeding
Feels like I'm drowning
If I sit still for too long

You're worn and you're ragged
Eyes burnt out like matchsticks
You've been retracing your steps
Trying to find your way home

But you don't even know where that is anymore
And you don't even know what you're searching for

I know that I messed up
I know you know it too
But I promise I only had the best intentions
When it came to you

Thought that a clean break would be easier to heal

But I still see your face
And I still feel your touch
And I hear things I don't want to hear

And in that silence I realize what I actually fear
Now I can't meet my eyes when I look in the mirror

Would you take my word if it meant nothing?
Would you come back if I said I'm sorry?
No you won't

How come everything I love always goes up in smoke?
And I know it's my fault but I can't let you go