Winter's Lie - Devil Ruined Lyrics

How long do I have before I go berserk
How long do I go before my heart don't work
I let my ego take care of the rest
I let my heart sit back and take a rest
I put blood, sweat, and tears onto my heart, yeah, I did
I pushed everyone away, yeah, even my friends
Even my friends
Lost so much, I don't really wanna lose again
Fell so much, I don't really wanna fall again
Let me stop and talk to you, Amari
I know you love me for who you see
But baby, I see you get tired
I see your soul I'm not hear your words, ain't a liar
I know I put a barrier around me and it's hard to put it down
I put my insecurities on the ground
I lay them all down so you can see what I'm afraid of
I put them all down so you can see what I'm ashamed of
Reach out to me cause I'm fading away
Reach out to me cause I'm losing my way
I'm hoping I still hold a place in your heart
Mama do i?
Tell me or am I just Ruined to you
Too hated to you, too tainted to you
Coming down from my high, I've never been so low
Do you love me?
Or am I just Ruined to you?