Wish of Ataraxis - Insane Lyrics

My perception is curved
Slope rising steeper as aging
Like a mountain building
My mind is a chameleon
And a chemical demon
I crash into myself at every turn
Because I'm the only one living in my world
My victim complex keeps brewing
As I'm stewing and I'm
Not meaning to lose my mind daily
Waking up I'm feeling calm
Until I fall into insanity
F*ck my hating me
I'm my own vampire my vitality
I'm stealing
Ruminating in anger
Misery is my creation
Misery is my creation

I am
So f*cking sick of feeling
Not okay
Okay
I am
So f*cking sick of myself
Driving myself
F*cking insane
Insane
I am
So f*cking sick of feeling
Not okay
Okay
I am
So f*cking sick of myself
Driving myself
F*cking insane
Insane

I'm so sick of writing all this
Bullshit about feeling sad
From feeling ugly, all others above me
Jealousy takes a knife and stabs
My brain, my brain
My brain, my brain, my brain
I'm going insane from bathing
In this toxic thought bath
I'm falling deeper in depression
Walking this path
Why the f*ck can't I chill out
Like everyone just living their life
And escape this
Daily pain, the daily shame I'm
Submersing myself in, in, in
Daily pain, the daily shame I'm
Submersing myself in, in, in
Daily pain, the daily shame I'm
Submersing myself in, in, in
Daily pain, the daily shame I'm
Submersing myself in

I am
So f*cking sick of feeling
Not okay
Okay
I am
So f*cking sick of myself
Driving myself
F*cking insane
Insane
I am
So f*cking sick of feeling
Not okay
Okay
I am
So f*cking sick of myself
Driving myself
F*cking insane
Insane

I am
So damn done with
Wallowing, wallowing in this
Pity
So sorry I am so much
I am so damn finished
Feeling like I'm
Not okay
Feeling like I'm
Not okay
Feeling like I'm
Not okay
Okay, okay

I'm not succumbing to myself anymore
Keeping up a eunoia is
A motherf*cking essential chore
I only tally injustice
I don't count what counts more
I'm not succumbing to myself anymore
Keeping up a eunoia is
A motherf*cking essential chore
I only tally injustice
I don't count what counts more

I am
So f*cking sick of feeling
Not okay
Okay
I am
So f*cking sick of myself
Driving myself
F*cking insane
Insane
I am
So f*cking sick of feeling
Not okay
Okay
I am
So f*cking sick of myself
Driving myself
F*cking insane
Insane

I am
So damn done with
Wallowing, wallowing in this
Pity
So sorry I am so much
I am so damn finished
Feeling like I'm
Not okay
Feeling like I'm
Not okay
Feeling like I'm
Not okay
Okay, okay