Tell me it gets easy
Tell me it's okay
Tell me that you'll find me
One day the sunshine will not feel like rain
Peace is a tease and she won't stop knocking
Trying to get me to let her in
Every time I decide to open the door the bitch just starts walking
Away
But not pain
She's still probably asleep
Underneath the sheets laying naked in my bed
Everyday I tell her I need a break but she owns way too much space up in my head
If it wasn't for her I wouldn't have all of this
The paint on my shame,
The regrets or over a decade in which
I haven't had a day
That I didn't spend f*cking depressed
Suicide nets
In case I slip or if
I'm ever tempted to just get over them
She'll hold me by the neck
Pull me in by the noose still attached to it
While still undressed
I'm drowning again
Pretending I can't swim
Somehow I enjoy this
Let my torment hop right back in
Who the f*ck was I ever really kidding
Good days like I'd ever let those happen
This is a battle that I'll never let myself win
Happiness never mind
Goddamn I just realized
I don't know anything about them
Tell me it gets easy
Tell me it's okay
Tell me that you'll find me
One day the sunshine will not feel like rain
If you're not a negative or violent emotion
Then I'm sorry but I'm not open
You really haven't learned yet?
Leave me alone when
I don't wanna be noticed
Which is when I'm at my lowest
Which is always as long as I don't lose my focus
Mirror the image of hopeless
And I'm so over the person who wrote this
Let me go see I've already written the note
I feel like these end it all thoughts are the only antidote
And the only ones I can trust to not let their promise be broke
But if they're like everyone else that's just fine
I'm done having to feel every second where my broken heart lies
And if hell is the destination
Well I've already been there most of my life
Wouldn't be my first visit
I'm still here haven't left in a long time
In fact a closed casket or in ashes seem like
The only places I could feel at home
I already told you to leave me alone
And I'm still so over the person who wrote this
Just let me go
I've already written the note
So just let me go
Leave me alone
I've already written the note
Goodbye
Now you get to say that I told you so
And f*ck this pretty chorus
Please don't
Tell me it gets easy
Tell me it's okay
Tell me that you'll find me
One day the sunshine will not feel like rain
I need you to let me go