Oxygin Video (MV)

I know I need to learn to live
With all the things I can't change
I hate the fact that I feel nothing
Or I'm reeling in pain
I need to shake this f*cking habit, so I try
But I can't
And I look down on other addicts
When we're one and the same
Remember back, I'm pushin' twenty
Those were simpler times
That's when we met
And ever since you're never far from my mind
I broke my ankle playin' ball
And so it's you I'm prescribed
And even through all of the pain
You make me feel I could fly a couple weeks
And now you're gone and now
I'm feelin' the stress
I always wanted to feel something
Maybe nothing is best
My friends and family start to
Question if I'm feelin' depressed
But I don't really give a damn
Just put me back on the meds
I've been lost in my head
My homie Jack said he dealt
With the same shit
He said he started drinkin' to
Deal with the pain quick
All you need is a fifth and
It's cool to remain lit
So he handed me a bottle, said
"Take about eight sips"
I'm faded, but I wanna feel straight numb
So I drank the rest of the bottle
Liquor burnin' my gums
Woke up the next day at
Around a quarter to one
My peers would say that meant I had fun
Right?

I've been lyin'
I've been sayin' I'm fine
But I've been feeling low and
I don't know why
Another night, I feel empty inside
Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find
Feel the weight lift off me
Someone tell my mom I'm sorry
I don't wanna lie
I've been losin' my mind
They tell me "Take a pill"
Until I feel alright

The present day been feelin' sick
Think I'm just bidin' my time
I take a shot of somethin' strong to
Keep that shit off my mind
All my friends started families and
They left you behind
And here I am drinkin' any
Can or bottle I find
My body took you in as blood
And so we're never apart some real shit
You the closest someone's been to my heart
But just like everything I love
You f*ckin' tear me apart
Just like everything I love
You f*ckin' tear me apart
I wanna be there for my son, daughter
Wife I mean my ex-wife now
I guess that time really flies when
You're drunk on the couch
I wanna shake this f*ckin' habit
I just don't know how
See, you would love to see me
Sink until I almost drown
And so you keep me on the
Brink of barely livin' and death
As long as I'm alive, yeah
You know you're gettin' my cheque
You pray my son and daughter will
Follow me in my steps
Your creator loves the fact that I'm broken
Broke and in debt can go a day without food
I can't go a day without you when I try
I get the shakes until my face turns blue
Lost my job, wife, life for a bottle of booze
You promised you would make me happy
We know that's not true
I tried every drug in the book
But they never hit me the same
I told my doc that I'm down
He put some pills in my name
It doesn't matter the problem
The fix is always the same
Always takin' the easy route, like
I'm never willin' to change, damn
Been blamin' everybody but me
With you inside my system
Everybody used to love me
But now my friends, family, my kids
They can't even trust me
Been losin' all my control and I
Let you f*ckin' become me
No more! I said no f*ckin' more!
I know you think I'm lyin'
I said this to you before
This time I'm f*ckin' ready
It's time to show you the door
This life is mine, it never was yours!

I've been lyin'
I've been sayin' I'm fine
But I've been feelin' low and
I don't know why
Another night, I feel empty inside
Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find
Feel the weight lift off me
Someone tell my mom I'm sorry
I don't wanna lie
I've been losin' my mind
They tell me "Take a pill"
Until I feel alright