Worm Ceiling - s2ep5 Lyrics

It's six AM and I'm still up
Binge watching Euphoria
I know that show is bad for me
Recovering addict it hurts to see
Realistic depictions of addiction
It's so f*cking triggering
But I can't stop, don't wanna stop
I'm rooting for the Rue in me (ruining)
And I can't sleep and I feel sick
It's the same shit I wrote before
But now I know what's the cause
Can't believe I didn't see it before
I don't think, I don't know
I don't think I can love myself
But now I know, yes I know
I'm self-destructing, just leave me alone
I'm self-destructing, just leave me alone
I'm self-destructive, just leave me alone
25 years, it's still the same shit
Don't think I'm ever coming out of it
I wanna be happy
I don't think I'll ever let me be
I've started the cycle, started to spiral
Fifth grader sipping on NyQuil
More, more, more, I take and I take
I'm happy now, but now it's too late
And I can't sleep and I feel sick
It's the same shit I wrote before
But now I know what's the cause
Can't believe I didn't see it before
I don't think, I don't know
I don't think I can love myself
But now I know, yes I know
I'm self-destructing, just leave me alone
I'm self-destructing, just leave me alone
I'm self-destructive, just leave me alone