Worpaint - Holdin' Up Lyrics

I'm bringing out the worst in any woman I get close to
Life isn't rehearsed and I ain't doin what I'm s'posed to
I can't take the heat but then I shiver in the cold too
Things are on repeat and I can't take back what I told you

Took it to heart and it tore me apart
Look into startin it back to the start
Hold up your faith cuz you can't be replaced
It's worth the wait and he'll show us the pace

I know that, I know that God is there
Still I feel, still I feel like life ain't fair
Holding onto, holding onto what he said
He's reason he's the reason I'm not dead

I'm living in the moment but the past is still behind me
Try to just let go but then there's something to remind me
Any time I'm flying seems I always do it blindly
Missing all the signs and then the road keeps getting windey

Hittin the curves like you didn't deserve
Sit on the curb and it's hitting a nerve
Isn't it real or you didn't just feel
Tires could squeal but he's taking the wheel

I know that I know that God is there
Telling me telling me that he still cares
Holding onto holding onto what he said
Holding up, holding holding up my head

I know it's not the end
I know I lost a friend
I know I can't pretend
I know I can't defend
Defense don't come out right
My mind is fight or flight
Only Christ can make it right
Can't trust my own sight

I'm losing every battle when I try to fight it lonely
Let the devil rattle and I know I'm not the only
Might have tried to grab but I will never let him hold me
Focused on the bad a different person that's the old me

Changing myself cuz it's all that can
Taking my health back into my hands
Give it to Jesus he offered to take it
Better believe this is how I can make it

I know that, I know that God is here
See it all, I see it all now crystal clear
Holding onto holding onto faith and trust
Now I know now I know, I can't give up
I know that, I know that God is there
Still I feel, still I feel like life ain't fair
Holding onto, holding onto what he said
He's reason he's the reason I'm not dead
I know that I know that God is there
Telling me telling me that he still cares
Holding onto holding onto what he said
Holding up, holding holding up my head