X Reasons Why - This Is Where I Lie Lyrics

I'm sitting on the stairs waiting for something
To pull me out of this suffering
Nothing can compare to what I used to be
But now that's just a memory
As I go on my life rushes by I see
All this time it slowly eats away at me
I can try to help myself, control my life
Can't find the strength, so this is where I lie
You'd said you'd always be a phone call away
But now I see how far I've decayed
I used to think, I used to dream
But now what I've become is just a shell of what I came from
As I go on my life rushes by I see
All this time it slowly eats away at me
I can try to help myself, control my life
Can't find the strength, so this is where I lie
I wish I could tell you all I mean to say
But it's so hard when I know you won't understand
I hope I can see all that's good in me
But all that dies to my fatal fallacies