Xanity - Lovely Lyrics

Damn, here we go again
Contemplating was I ever really meant for this
I'm 22 asking the same old questions
Maybe I wasn't really meant for this
I thought I found a way out of this tunnel of questions
But I keep going back I just keep regressing
Damn I don't even know who I am anymore
Cuz I can't even recognize my own reflection
I'm lost, trying to find a way to the surface
I'm hopeless, I don't even know my purpose
I'm broken, but why do I feel so worthless?
I'm just trying to find my way back to the surface
I'm sorry to everyone that I disappointed
I know, I feel like a disappointment
My momma tells me to leave the past behind
But for the last 4 years I've been stuck in this moment

Isn't it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome

What happened to me?
I'm addicted to the pain like it's nicotine
I've been on it for a while, since I started the trial, Like it's the only thing that's there for me
Yeah
I can barely breathe, when the high starts to fade, I can barely think
Cuz I'm trapped in my mind with my memories and the pain just serves as a remedy
F*ck, now I'm lost again
I'm hopeless, I can't even find a friend
I'm broken, I don't even understand
I'm just trying to find a way my heart can mend
I'm sorry to everyone that I disappointed
I know, I feel like a disappointment
My momma tells me to leave the past behind
But for the last 4 years I've been stuck in this moment

Isn't it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome

Like why do I always feel alone
I don't know why I always feel alone
Or maybe I do
I'm just scared of running from the thing that I've always known
I've been walking down this empty road
Letting my thoughts make themselves at home
Pushing people when they get close but it's not intentional