Xenial - Deep End Lyrics

I been going off the deep end lately
Question to myself is the music gonna change me
I have no one else to help me out besides my baby my lady
But fate be
Tempting me to change and be somebody I would hate see
I look into the mirror on the daily
Looking back at myself I wonder what myself says maybe
It hates me
It paints me
In different shades no safety
No wonder I be choking up and turning grey plainly
Been so long since I been on the ground
A couple thousand feet I am never coming down
My pops works by the hour at the desk for a check
Then he bounce I try to book my flights to escape this discount
Of this life that I'm living
I been blessed but I think I'll never hit the ceiling
I'll probably stay at the bottom cause this life is short and hollow
Plus the way that fame goes it's a pill I won't swallow now I'm

On my own road right now
Don't know if I'm gonna drive and make it out
Am I going too fast am I going too slow
I don't know but I'm broken down
I don't know but I'm broken down
I don't know but I'm broken down
I'm at the end of my rope should I cut it
Or come back around

And to be honest with you I don't know if I should keep it going
I'm pressing the issue
Pressing the button
But get no loving from people I spit to
It's harder to stay afloat
When nobody ride with you
I been too
Deep in the shit
I creep in the shit
How
You lead in the shit
But digging so deep down
I thought I had the work down to a science
But I'm still at ground zero man I always been defiant
All I need is a riot
A fire inside to kill depression, anxiety every thought I would hide
I been a fighter ever since I came from out of the sky
With a tube tied
A pound 15 I arrived so why
Would I let this get to me
If iron would sharpen iron then I been already fully
In command of my destiny treachery been ahead of me
But I'm shooting for the stars changing my trajectory

On my own road right now
Don't know if I'm gonna drive and make it out
Am I going too fast am I going too slow
I don't know but I'm broken down
I don't know but I'm broken down
I don't know but I'm broken down
I'm at the end of my rope should I cut it
Or come back around
On my own road right now
Don't know if I'm gonna drive and make it out
Am I going too fast am I going too slow
I don't know but I'm broken down
I don't know but I'm broken down
I don't know but I'm broken down
I'm at the end of my rope should I cut it
Or come back around