While crying in my bed
Blaming myself for being still here
Cut my stomach on a half
I realized that it's all good
I'm doing things i love
And i'm happy,but behind the curtains
There's a different story
I tried my best
To train,to heal,to be the best
But crying and crawling,after each routine
Didn't made me feel good
Maybe i was born to suffer
Maybe i was born to be depressed
Whatever i do,gives me the pain
Wish i took a swim with fishes
I don't care about thoughts and opinions
They can say whatever they want
I'm a ghost of society
Cursed,dead and expired
Power off
Don't look at my body
Just leave me to die
It's all good honestly
Because i'm living my best life
And problems are the past
I remember crying while trying to sleep
Their voices haunted me
Their voices are killing me
Maybe if i click turn off
I will feel the silence of society
I can't bend down at 17
But now that i think about it
I have water and food
That i'm vommiting everyday
But it's all good
I swear i'm good
It's all good
Until it's not