Yish - Alive Lyrics

Lonely days
Lonely nights
Can barely keep myself alive
All the laughter
All the pain
Im addicted to your eyes

Lonely days
Lonely nights
Am I a victim or a slave
All the pressure
All the pain
Almost gave myself away

I've been rapping in my mind
Got a bullet to my head
Trigger pullin slow
Thought keeps rushin through my head

Liquor running through my veins
Broken bottle to my neck
Pullin on it slow
Maybe someday you'll forget

Lately Im doing great
Happy is a better trait
Dreamin of drivin that wraith
Livin that life, no I cant hesitate

Drippin in designer sweaters
Chillin with a bitch who treats me better
And I used to be stuck in my mind,
But now I'm just fine
Got my crew on my side

Wastin my time
Countin the dimes
Committing the crimes
Doing the time
Findin the words and speaking my mind
Findin the time
Learn from the pain
Learn from the joy
Learn for the art
Not for the fame
Grind for the game
Not for the chart
All in the same
Let's rap for the boy
Keep lightin this flame

I cant say anyone will care when I'm gone
I cant say anyone will catch me when I fall
I cant say anyone will even take the time
Imma kill this beat and write another rhyme

Starin down a barrel
Thinkin bout suicide
Tryna figure out which one is better
My life or the afterlife
All these scary thoughts, from deep inside
I wanna cry, wanna die, cant decide, I need to shape up, cuz I really wanna to stay alive

I'm tryna get a grasp of it
Tryna get a hold of it
How the f*ck can I be a better man
How can I really understand
Dark silhouette with a pistol in my hand
Coulda really done it if I ever had a plan
With your
Blessing
Or without
I know you'll
Understand

I cant say anyone will care when I'm gone
I cant say anyone will catch me when I fall
I cant say anyone will even take the time
Imma kill this beat and write another rhyme
I cant say anyone will care when I'm gone
I cant say anyone will catch me when I fall
I cant say anyone will even take the time
Imma kill this beat and write another rhyme