YOUNGKING - Denial Lyrics

I'm here in denial, I'm settin', I'm chillin', my thoughts just just pile, I'm waitin' for
Calls to deny all the lies, I'm shakin', I'm nervous, it took me a while to reply to my
Homies texts, it was like, f*ck, f*ck, shit, I'm sorry to tell you, but COVID a bitch
I started to choke, I couldn't believe, I hit up my dad, I started to scream, his voice

Was real shaky, I thought this was it, my eyes started hurtin', I felt like a bitch
I thought he was lyin', but I'm in denial, so many tears, I could fill up the niel, I
Wish I was dead, my heart just bled, I thought there was hope, heard this is a sick prank
But now that I'm livin', my life ain't the same, I carry this burden, it causes me pain

I thought I could cope, but I was insane, I still think about it, until this lil' day
I found a lil' message, and all I can say, I wish that my grandma did not pass away