Imma do this one time with no apology
I never thought you'll see this side of me
But ok here we go
Dear nana i kno u watchin me
Cuz i been thru too much for u not to be, everynight im grippin hard on my rosary
Coulda shoulda wouldas but i guess this how its pose to be
I got a unborn child that i aint never met
Some things i coulda done different but i got no regrets
I cant be mad at the shit i never had
Except of the fact that i never had a dad
And even tho he was killed its still f*ck that niggah
Sometimes i think i hate my momma cuz she f*cked that niggah
I try to tell myself i shouldnt hold no grudge
Cuz without him theres no me and who am i to judge
My baby momma and wifey pregnant the same year
I looked up like "nigga this shit aint fair"
Within a month they bost miscarried
I was BALLIN outta control i guess this is what the risk carried
Dont know if he was answering my prayers
Or just proving he existed
So un-realistic
Got me feeling like a misfit
Im on the shit list
Look at how this shit went
From september till christmas
No matter how good my grades was i never got my wish lost
Aint no rewards for being gifted
Instead they lock us in the system
Wrist cuffed while we fist clinch
I seen the tough guy role played a million times
Different movie same ending it aint a surprise
So dramatic anticlimactic
I kno more people who lost it then had it
Lex hit a lawsuit for a hunnit k
I sat back and watched him ball for like a hunnit days
He f*cked that money up a hunnit different ways
U win and lose some but u live to see another day
Im rooting for my niggas no matter the cause
U hating on ya man cuz his bitch badder than yours
U competing wit ya niggas i aint into that
U screaming loyalty but u aint really living that
Lets put a end to that
Run and tell em the real is back
Fake niggas calling me bro is gettin really whack
Im getting tired of f*cking these niggas bitches
Broke hoes sharing clothes claiming that they sisters
U kno the shit is f*ckin ridiculous
U doing everything u said u hated u a hypocrite
U kno the shit is f*ckin ridiculous
U doing everything u said u hated u a hypocrite
Lemme hear all that back