I Don't Wanna Try Video (MV)

Tears are falling I've been crying tryna change my life
I've been hurting suffocating tryna live this life
Popping pills to stay awake I want serenity
I want a hundred million dollars and eternity
Kill me now or never kill me what's it gonna be
I don't ever wanna see you if you gonna leave
Give support or give me nothing it don't matter to me
Cause I'm still gon be amazing climb the ladder you'll see
I want pain inside my life so I can tell my story
I want touchdowns in the end zone so I get the glory
I want people to be seeing me and know I'm real
4 million dollars is the only way I'll sign a deal

I don't wanna try I don't wanna try
I don't wanna die I don't wanna die
I said never mind never never mind
Imma stay alive stay a stay alive

Dads been working at warehouse for like 13 years
I'm tryna blow so he won't work there for a 14th year
I'm tryna find the sun it's hidden underneath the clouds
I'm tryna kill the pain my homie rolling up the loud
And I don't even smoke but I've been feeling tempted lately
And pour a cup for me deciding if I'm drinking maybe
And I've been feeling so nauseated and underrated
I'm killing beats my microphone they took it confiscated
So many kills like in the army, shirt is decorated
They give me medals give me glory like I graduated
I'm captivated I'm doing shows now I'm compensated
I'm aggravated get off my dick man I'm agitated
I'm motivated so many murders I've orchestrated
I masqueraded identities now I'm fabricating
It's saturated this rap game needs to be separated
I've dominated I'm cultivated I've elevated

I don't wanna try I don't wanna try
I don't wanna die I don't wanna die
I said never mind never never mind
Imma stay alive stay a stay alive