It's just a letter to my son Full of tears when you came on 11-6-21
You be three and now I think about all the things that we done
I just laugh when I see you, I remember when you was one
Now your dad ain't perfect, who's perfect? Just show me one
You my heart, boy, my world, I'll kill for my only son
I'ma teach you what I know, so just soak it up like a sponge
Why you think I give you time? Cause it's more important than funds
You will cry through the night when your teeth will push through your gums
Then will cry right after eating
There was times I would stare at you for hours while you sleeping
Give me motivation, drive the extra push to keep achieving
I don't ask God for much, but I can see that you, I need it
It was hard to stay alive until I really had a reason
Son, I'll sacrifice it all just to see you keep on breathing
That's why daddy going hard, you so smart, boy, I'm grateful I've been seeing you evolve
You been through some lows with me, but I promise we gon' ball
Time flying when it's raw, I remember when you crawled
Now you throwing me the ball, so I gotta give my all
Here to catch you when you fall
So I'm sorry for these tears that keep falling while I vent
Everything I can't control, but what's happening is meant
Just to see you born again, I go through it all again
You my son, you my friend, you my seed, you my twins
Just to see you born again, isolated from the world
Cause I'll give up all this shit
It did something to my spirit when you asked to give me fists
I'm committed to this Deavan I could never call it quits
I can't promise you the world, but shit, I can promise this
Still learning this father shit, it's probably my hottest shit
Emotions while writing this, you see me get hype as shit
The journey lonely as f*ck, but daddy gon' hold his grip
Damn
God, I'm grateful for the fact that I got a second chance
Real tears falling, think about a life without lil' man
He was planned , can't trip on how shit went, I understand
Just cause I ain't on what they on doesn't mean I ain't no man
Fell for funny shit but caught myself slipping, here I stand
I hope you understand, I love you