I'm somewhere lost in Chicago right now
F*ck
Damn
Pain, killing
Drunk as f*ck right now
When you cry it's not charged into the game and I ain't mention this (and I ain't mention)
Mad at myself and let my guard and now I'm not even noticing (and I ain't notice it)
I don't even notice you
I locked my feelings in a club, but I let you in it (but, I let you in it)
You was praying for me to lose, I was praying for you to win
My mama said I had a problem, my heart bigger than me (bigger than me)
You'll rather be somewhere else in this world than right here with me
You the reason my heart got cold (you the reason my heart got cold)
World weighing on me, how I'm supposed to hold it?
This the one I taught, baby, come closer (come here)
Telling me you here, then why I feel lonely? (Lonely)
You better off without me, just go on
I ain't tryna f*ck up the vibe (I ain't tryna f*ck up the vibe)
Having second thoughts about my dawg, watch him from the corner of my eye (watch him)
So many people want me dead, I'm out here tryna survive
I know I f*cked up so many times (uh), I promise this time I'm trying
Playing tug of war with my emotions, it's starting to f*ck with my mind (uh, uh, uh)
With my career and even my kids, I'm tryna balance the time (I'm tryna balance the time)
Lord, I'm tired of being in this world, that's when I start to drink
Said I was done with the Don, but can you pass me a drink? (Pass me that right there)
Ayy
Said I was done with the Don, but can you pass me a drink? (I'm done, I'm done, this time I'm done)
Pass me a drink
Said I was done with the Don, but can you pass me a drink (hand me that)
Right now I'm too f*cked up with myself, I'm tryna sober up (I'm leaning)
Losing myself with my addictions, somebody wish me luck
Tryna be strong and hold on, feel myself giving up (I'm giving up)
Checking my cell-fans soon, but tonight I'ma live it up
Can you let go of me? (Go)
I don't want you to hold on, let me- (I don't)
Promise this time different
Played them for what it was, I promise I ain't tripping (I ain't tripping)
Ayy, when I be battling with myself that's when I create distance
Everybody telling me I'm conforming, but that's just how I'm dealing (how I deal with it)
Expressing myself on my mic like they care how I'm feeling
Don't call me, answering my phone either
Promise I don't need ya
I'm prepared for you to walk out like "Gone on and leave me" (bye)
I promise I could do this on my own and act like they don't believe me
Having dreams, dying in my home tryna protect my kingdom (the f*ck)
Once I gave away my heart, I begged for her to keep it (keep it)
Thought I was done with this pain, but it's been running deeper (been running deeper)
F*ck me and my brother's keeper, my brother tried to creep me
Drown in my emotions and this money while I'm still breathing
Only times I don't feel strong is the times I need to be
I'm wandering off alone at times I don't need to be
I'm tryna hold on (I'm tryna hold on), help me
And I ain't at peace
Tryna focus on my career, feel like I'm failing me (I'm failing)
I need therapy
Locking myself inside the dark, the devil talking to me (what he said?)
My dawg in jail and he ain't sad, but he blame me for his choices (know he blame)
Knowing he ain't do it and he facing time, he feel like it's torture
Can you let go of me? (Drink)
I don't want you to hold on, let me go (go)
Why can't you let go of me? Oh
I don't want you to hold on, let me go (go)
Said I was done with the Don, but can you pass me a drink?
(I swear I'm done this time, I'm done, I'm done)
Said I was done with the Don, but can you pass me a drink?
(Get out my-, nah, I don't want it, yeah)
Pass me a drink
Said I was done with the Don, but can you pass me a drink? (Pass me a drink)
Pass me a drink
I'm done this time
I'm done with the-
Pass me a drink