I been holding in so much pain
If you knew my story nigga you would do the the same
Since a youngin been going through it learned how to maintain
Lul nigga lion hearted wit a big dream
I just wan make it out for my muva she my queen
Yeah I gotta make it out can't let know one intervene
I been grinding errday shit is really what it seems
Lately I been in my bag I been doing my own thing
Me and all my niggas always on the same page
At least that I can say none of my niggas ever changed
I'm surrounded by the real ion f*ck with the lame
I be staying 10 toes I got ice in my veins
A lot of times I be feeling all alone in the rain
I miss kickin it with my niggas I ain't talking Liu kang
I'm tryn be great like Kareem make it to the hall of fame
Tryn ball with my bruddas win a ring for my team
Going through depression it be f*ckin up my mental
Be wanting to talk it out but i realize who can I vent to
And ion trust nobody guess I'm sorta confidential
Don't like talking bout my feelings don't like feeling sentimental
I just brush the pain away, ohh
If I ain't hit you in a minute my fault I really meant to
Even though I got a lot on my plate it's mouthing I can't handle
I swear my life is like a movie but its time to flip the channel
I know that I'm broken
Can't put the pieces back together I feel hopeless
I be feeling numb to the pain don't show emotion
I feel at my lowest like the bottom of the ocean
No I ain't choose to live this life feel like I'm chosen
Gotta keep my head on straight no I foldin
I know they wan see me fall but I ain't going
Best believe a youngin up next yeah I'm loading
I swear I'm loading
I've been praying for better days
Y'all like hanging with the crowd I like being in my own space
I been taking my time keeping up at my own pace
Niggas fail to understand slow and steady wins the race
I f*ck with all my niggas please don't take this the wrong way
Can't be chilling all the time I'm tryn do shows in different states
I done got up on my grind ion got no time to waste
Only money on my mind I'm just tryn get paid
Mama always said to live with no regrets
And Sammy always said if something on yo mind say it with yo chest
Niggas be plotting on my bruddas death
And I'll be damned if I let another nigga try to lay my brudda to rest
Yeah I'm on man time even though I'm stressed
Told my muva and my brudda when I make it we goin take off in a jet
Trynna get my wrist flooded with baguettes
All my niggas goin be drippin and drowning gotta look out for all my slats
I know that I'm broken
Can't put the pieces back together I feel hopeless
I be feeling numb to the pain don't show emotion
I feel at my lowest like the bottom of the ocean
No I ain't choose to live this life feel like I'm chosen
Gotta keep my head on straight no I foldin
I know they wan see me fall but I ain't going
Best believe a youngin up next yeah I'm loading
I swear I'm loading