Yxngphenomenon - Fine on My Own Lyrics

Time for me to vent on a beat
Aint nobody know how I feel and its real
I left everyone I love behind
But I gotta do fine
I would of died for them funny to say when I abandoned them
Reminiscing Bout every memory I have
Told her I love her
But how could I leave?
Only 13 when I had to
Empty promises cause in the end I forgot about her
I know I gotta stop with these percs and these meds
But im lost in my head
And I feel like im dead
Like an empty shell
And some of these people are fake as hell
I don't know why they tryna act like they care
Pour out a bottle and drown in my sorrow
I don't need no one
Im fine on my own tho
Visions of my friend
Who is dead
Replaying in my head
And in slow mo
Cant take the preassure no more
I know for a fact that im better alone
Told me you`d never leave that was a joke
I hate that you have to sever the bonds with the people you thought you love the most
Need to grab my med and disappear in smoke
Sometimes that's the only way I can cope
Say it will get better
But im losing hope
I hate to remember the days that were good cause I want them back
Matter of fact
I crave them bad
I don't have racks
But I make these tracks
Cause they help me take some shit off my chest
Don't get me wrong
I know that im blessed
But there are still times when im feeling depressed
There are still times when I roll up the cess
Indica still help me relax
I know that im slowly just killing myself
But im feeling alive
Feeling to tired to hear another lie
And feeling to high to take another line
Feeling to messed to open my eyes
Despite all my shit I hope I got god on my side
I said imma change
I tried but I cant
Don't know if that means that im better off dead
I got a lot of shit that I regret
I can hear demons inside of my head
Making them quiet when I pop a xan
Theres not a thing that I represent
I don't know if I could ever repent
For all of my sins I need to confess