Zachadelic - Come Up Lyrics

I never saw this life coming, it's not a secret
If you'd have told me years ago, I just wouldn't believe it
A fat white kid with a Tech Deck, couldn't stop eatin'
They love you, then they start to hate you, shit, 'tis the season
Hallways, before class, my freshman year
When rap music was still the furthest thing from my ear
Had that classic rock on blast, it's still near and dear
Thinkin' bout what the f*ck I should do for a career
But then this kid sits across from us, and I think he's cool
He's actin' like he's popular, shit, what else to do?
What else I do? I follow, another to the crew
He'd play music out his phone, thinkin' back it's rude
I wanna be like him, for whatever reason
I didn't know myself yet, I started takin' pieces
Of other people I admired, maybe I'd feel completed
He started playin' Lil Wayne, some Drake, then repeat it
Later that night, go on iTunes, search up some artists
Listen to previews, every song I like, I bought it
I'm so confused, mind stopping, gotta be honest
I hated rap my whole life, now I think I'm retarded
The melody, what they tellin' me, the life of celebrities
I'd listen every single night 'til I fell asleep
Boi-1da, T-Minus, obsessed with the beats
Drake, Wayne, Kendrick, I'm obsessed with the beasts
They start rappin' bout money, bitches, and all their ice
How they went from a waste of life to the greatest life
I'm 13, thinkin' shit, sound like it might be nice
And then I saw my life change right before my eyes
Look at me now, rappin' Look At Me Now
Spittin' full speed, rappin', mama look at me now
I found some shit I really enjoyed, and damn I feel proud
And started seeing jaws drop, when they counted me out, look at me now
Months go by, start writing my own shit
Pound Cake instrumental, on some notes in the phone shit
Lookin' back on the lyrics, I mean I gotta own it
Rappin' bullshit, like I got bitches I'm going home with
They say practice makes perfect, shit, it better be worth it
But see, the more you start to write, more you think you deserve it
Record some songs, you're feeling your presence start to surface
But no one seems to give a shit, and I feel like I'm worthless
I mean I got an EP I barely promoted
I got some singles that I put my heart and soul in
But if I keep complaining and don't do nothing, I ain't focused
It's my fault if I don't make these motherf*ckers notice, I
Was writing for months, not one song finished
Went to record, shit didn't turn out how I visioned
So now I'm sad as f*ck, stuck questioning my ambition
This is all I really wanted, I can't do nothing different
So now I'm writing back to back, track after track, bet I'll come back
I say it, though I don't believe it, just know where I'm at
No connections, I gotta put myself on the map
If this ain't do it, then I'm givin' up
Shit, it's a wrap