ZACHTHEARTIST - Starless night (Memos Version) Lyrics

Watching from across the room
Im jealous how their all in tune
With their laughs
Makes me mad
That they understand each other
With no effort while I suffer
All alone
Like nobody's home
So I'm lying in bed awake
I start to think to contemplate
Am I loved
Or are they sick of
My unusual behavior
That makes me look like a failure
In their eyes
All the time

I retreat to my only source of joy
The only thing that could ever touch my soul
The music that just sounds so right
The only thing that gives me light in my
Dark and starless night

Morning afternoon and night
I'm in my room turned out the lights
Hear a knock
But I'm not
Ready to face family
When it feels like they are stabbing me
In my heart
Make it stop
So I isolate and stay away
So nobody get's hurt the way
That I do
If I only knew
That this emotion imbalance
Would be back all the bad habits
That I kicked
But they came back quick

I retreat to my only source of joy
The only thing that could ever touch my soul
The music that just sounds so right
The only thing that gives me light in my
Dark and starless night

It doesn't seem like they understand
That it hurts me not to be like them
But I
Cant change who I am

I retreat to my only source of joy
The only thing that could ever touch my soul
The music that just sounds so right
The only thing that gives me light in my
Dark and starless night