Lightbugs (feat. Jiggy2k) Video (MV)

This is what I'm leaving today
Feels like leaving a wake
This is new for me
It's hard for me to be happy
When I look through my years
I can barely hold the tears
Pissed and mad
That I cant be glad
I feel like trash
Like I'm abandoning everything I had
Like I'm leaving my family in the past
After the life that they craft
I'm ready to walk away to outlast
I wanna grow out like gas
But the sun's been beaming my ass
For so many summers
I want them to move up
But I hate to think of
All the years I haven't thought of
Till I pulled out items
That are idle in my closet
Like memoirs of a younger me
Like, remember me
9-year-old z
That'd play chess with himself
So lonely
That'd play diddy racing
No mercy
Remember when id create a fake war with Batman toys
Remember on punishment thinking its a joy
Cause' on the list wasn't toys
Breaking system controllers
Had every system you know of
Not really
Just the ones afforded
But my time it hoarded
Said it'd make me a corpse
But of course
A reinforcement
Of positivity
Back then light bugs
Could hold infinity
They could fly
Unlike me on suburb streets
Now I'm in Georgia
And they're rarely seen
At least by me
Alone we'll be
Watching light bugs
Fly freely
Fly freely
Let the beat rock
I look at my moments to relive my focus
When I was fluid in my motions
When my thoughts
Though naught
Gave me my promotions
I don't gloat this
Know Midas from the poise
And not poison
Calling me boy can
Relocate yo' chin
To a universe
Rick n Morty's in
My coarse yet porous skin
Can absorb the harshest pen
Whats a sword
To a mind that's a weapon
Corny right
Right
But what was loaded in my pen
Murder ink(Yeah)
And between me and you
I got a million(Milian) reasons
Yall won't be Ja rule
Look at me thinking I'm battling
Light bugs would shed light
On my melanin
But in Georgia
I seem to just wanna pretend
Even though I know
Everyone's a fake friend
I have close ones
That I know won't ever bend
Or pretend
Because I didn't get the win
That's Matthew
LaMarcus
Jack
Jerica
Haley
And light bugs in the wind
Suffocating light bugs just to see the light
I had some trust issues so I never freed them
I just watched them bang against the glass
Like me in the heat of night
I think I'm off balance I just need to equalize
The weight of the jar in my left hand
And that heap in the right
That I call me when it's all me and the season's right
Heaping the world on my shoulders
Atlas was no bitch
They just keep hurling down boulders
I'm just below the ridge
See I already fell
Cause I'd already plateaued
Cause there some laws to this
Well, there are some flaws that hold
I'm tryna catch a light bug
From falling in a black hole
But I'm slipping myself
And I just don't have a hold
Grab a hold
Of a light bug
I did but I squeezed too hard
Lack a soul
For the ride up
Like I don't know what bereavements are
Tactical
When I'm mic'd up
Cause they won't always leave me apart
Rabbit hole
Use my life up
Sabbatical's just to write nothing
Attitude on fight nothing
Attitude on find something
Attitude on I'm done with it
Sad to lose but I stomach it
Fat to lose not really any
I fumbling any semblance of crumbs
To be nibbling
I'm stumbling from hunger
Start suffocating light bugs just to feel alright
We're all really stuck in jars and breathing
Fighting
For more air but they ain't poke holes in the ceiling right
It is what it is it ain't no shit
We're just light bugs
You know? the same old shit
Break the glass if you want
That'll just obscure the view
I'm sure it's you
When that faint cold shifts
If I could rewind my time
And control my life
With the knowledge of 21 at 9
I'd make time to give roses
While they hear
Not on the casket
Like they often rose
Wake up
And catch em
It don't work that way
I'm certain
I'm certain to crawl from the same pitfalls
But nothing's certain
Till I start working
Till I stop chirping
Searching for an easy convenience
Fall in patterns
The need for sequence
Its the human in me
I don't blame nothing on nobody
Other than myself
I could've prevented this
Now I'm into it
And it's not secretive
And I see the shit
That Imma' go through
But as long as light bugs
Shine through like light bulbs
The dark roaches will be seen too
So ill be fine
Drinking my water
Cause' of sunshine uh
Ill be fine
Drinking my water
Cause' of sunshine
Cause' we out of freezer pops
Like old times
Cause' we out of freezer pops
Like old times uh