ZAVIONTHEARTIST - BARRY Lyrics

I thought I'd have it figured it out by now
Omni Management thought it'd be in the bag by now
That I wouldn't be considering giving up rap by now
It ain't 2016 with the graduating class right now
I don't know what to tell you
Jaime's Dad passed and mine almost did
Mortality looking at us
With eyes of brutality
We're no longer kids
Innocence is the casualty
Hope to shower our families
With love cuz being
The next man of the house
Carries a heavy bid
We still here though
And God watches over
His seeds
Like a scarecrow
Yall some weirdos
This ain't the lies and the plight of the pharaohs
The word over the world
The gospel is my arrow my brother
My brother is lost but
He told me he f*ck with my music
We could cry but he ain't wanna do it
Cuz of my skin and cuz of my gender
And honestly both of those reasons are stupid
I'm sick of sitting in church awaiting to hear
Of another killed cuz of fear
Fear of progression
Fear of man with lessons
I fear I'm impairing his message
I treated my pen like paraphernalia
Shemar cooling it down in Australia
Meanwhile it's writers block and failure
I gotta stop with the measuring rod
When my light gets better with time
When my light gets better with Jah
I swear to y'all I want to rap

But I can rarely give you that
Too much is on my soul
Too much is on my plate
It's too much for you to know
And too much for me to say
I'm done making excuses
See I'm regaining my voice
And Jov is tryna not lose his
He a younger me
More wild and diffusive
The more we want
The more it becomes elusive
Wanna record my inner view
But who'd watch the exclusive
My discomfort is not for your amusement
No matter what tik tok is doing
Or what trend is setting a movement
Aye It's 2023
And I ain't got the answers
That I thought I would have
Like when was the last time
A creative actually created
And not regurgitated
That in itself should be celebrated
Your boys put the con in contemporary
That wave that drip that flow
Is getting real dysentery
Y'all should be worried
Cuz I'm barely in my zone
I know what it's like to be safe
Cuz I barely made it home
I'm more like James
But I feel like Barry with the bonds
Right now

What I'm saying is
Is that It's outta here
I'm in the grandees
While y'all having the grandest of illusions
I can't even critique your movements
You don't promote
You don't invoke
You don't got a pulse
I can't know what you're doing
When was the things that you wanted actually happened
And it actually mattered
And it's not a fluke it's the natural pattern
And people are actually clapping
For what you've done
And not actually pandering
Cuz you won
Because you on
They Idolize
Then pickpocket ya pride
Can you imagine
What it's like to be
Exactly what they ask for
They want me to be a rapper
They want me to be a singer
That and an actor
Put me through the ringer
The do everythinger
The anti boat sinker
The thinker
The tinkerer
In a glass display
For you to tink tink tink
Just not today
How do you keep getting better
Have you ever been asked that
Have you ever been laughed at
When talking about plans
Did it sound like homies listening
Or it sound like a laughtrack
Do you live for the Lord
I mean really for the Lord
Or do you live for a chorus
Well I'm sorry
We don't have that