Mind Video (MV)

My life falling apart but I'm chilling
Not in my feelings
Usually I'd cry and sigh and have butterflies
In my belly but I feel empty
I just lost my vision
Dont know if ill make it
Will I ever have children
I been so evasive
Thinking bout the ifs and the buts
Till I lay eyes shut
Cuz I don't give a f*ck
And I wish my time was up
Find your piece of mind
It might take some time
But in the end you'll find
A space where you can thrive
Just wait and don't contrive
Or you'll just fall down again
Missed school today guess attendance dropped again
Laying was bed was quick fix then
Sleeping in my tears a daily task
I'm falling fast
I just cut myself then cover up the pain
Stay in my lane
I need therapists analysts
Prescriptions like a shopping list
I'm willing to take the risk
I'm willing for diligence
But I'm declining
Negatives are aligning
My life put on a signing
Rawness I'm refining
Find your piece of mind
It might take some time
But in the end you'll find
A space where you can thrive
Just wait and don't contrive
Or you'll just fall down again
I don't want to hurt you
I don't want to make you want to cry
I'd rather suffer and wipe my eyes
Than to see you pay
And even though
Im feeling worse
You won't see me in a hearse
And even though this really hurts
I could never ever make you cry
Find your piece of mind
It might take some time
But in the end you'll find
A space where you can thrive
Just wait and don't contrive
Or you'll just fall down again