Portrait Video (MV)

I've always been one to play the fool
To fool the fool who thinks I'm being fooled
But this awkward staging leads nowhere
Guess I'd rather throw my f*cks into thin air

Never been the one to greet with hostility
But can't f*ck with kissing the hands which hurt me
I had never given up on battles easily
Until I fought battles which were never mine to battle

I've always been one to chase dreams
And step over my inhibitions for the better
But I gotta keep myself focused
Even if it means to walk alone, and not together

Been f*cked over by old lovers
Doesn't mean I should f*ck myself over, too
Or let myself get damaged by others
I know damn well what I deserve
And no, it's not someone to help me recover

I put that shit to work
I gift all these clowns with a joyful smirk
Made my parents proud, or so I hope
But being who I want to be can be a slippery slope

Unapologetic and sometimes self-centered
I filled my emptiness with strangers
For a dose of affection, I surrendered
The bed was my confessional, but filled with dangers

I wrote a lot of letters to long-lost friends
Who have washed what once was tragic
But I always found myself to be the one who mends
The broken hearts which lacked magic
And I'm alone again once it all ends

I never needed saving
And I closed so many doors
So that I can preserve my good deeds
And let myself heal from past bleeds.

I won't let myself be defined by misdemeanours
Or be judged by the eyes of those who don't know what I carry
I can't get back the f*cks that I gave, there's no room for strife
There's only color in the portrait of my life